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13 entries this month
Chores
16:55 Sep 30 2007
Times Read: 1,144
I screwed myself pretty much over for the most part. I made a new rule where chores are posted on the bulletin board for us to do every day. *sighs* I also made the rule for myself that I am not allowed on Vampire Rave until I get my own chores done. Big mistake. What happens when I can't finish them because of my legs, hips, back... my whole body. I know when I can't do anymore. I am typing this now because I need a break from standing and doing the dishes. Brett went to dry my clothes since I am not allowed lifting.
God, it takes forever to get him moving in the morning. At least I waited until 9:45 a.m. and didn't wake him up any sooner. He has a lighter load then me, the 33 week along pregnant woman who is having breathing problems.
But my actions on this are to get our asses moving on shaping the apartment up enough to get ready for the baby.
I just wonder if I am going to be able to finish my list today. *sighs* I might have to split it up between two days. I have to ready to face my own limitations, especially with contractions happening from pushing myself too much.
I am, yet again, a prisoner within my own body...
And it's horrible to feel that way...
Honestly, this is my own personal hell.
Covens
22:45 Sep 29 2007
Times Read: 1,142
Wow, looking at some of the covens on here and their regulations are ridiculous! I mean come on, members can't be expected to abide by all the regulations that are seriously uncalled for. The only point I see in most of them is a power trip and the masters wanting to get their coven up in the ranks. What the hell? That wasn't what the societies were meant for and I'm sure as hell Cancer did not intend for them to make it into just another popularity contest...
I don't even think some of these covens give a crap about valuable members... as in members who actually could help their coven out.
Wow! I am seriously hoping when I start my coven, I don't get on that kind of power trip! It's sad the condition of some of the covens.
I know I really don't have room to talk since I haven't started mine yet but I do know enough about the societies to know some of them are in a pathetic condition.
Everything
20:31 Sep 23 2007
Times Read: 1,147
I just want my daddy! I can't even go to the cemetery this year. I might try to go up right after the baby is born, depending on the weather.
God, I swear I need to just break completely down a few times and get this all out of my system. It's making me miserable. But I don't want to go back to old habits with Aurora in me still. I don't want to get so emotional I cause the baby to be born early.
At least Brett and I are going to get me registered at the hospital and to tour the baby unit on Tuesday or Wednesday this week.
And I am to the point I feel like I can't breathe from time to time. Last night, my lips actually went to a shade of blue. That's seriously not good. I am thinking if I do go until November with the baby in me, I will be on bedrest. If my body keeps on acting up, Brett will make me go to the doctor's before the third of October.
God, I really hate doctor offices and hospitals!
Ahhhhhhhhhh!
16:42 Sep 20 2007
Times Read: 1,149
FINALLY!!!!!!!
Your Status: Sire (Level 28)
You have completed 100% of this level.
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Times Read: 1,153
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House Page Contest
03:06 Sep 16 2007
Times Read: 1,155
"Starting today and ending next saturday at midnight I want you to post your ideas for a House page . Daire will look at all the entrys and pick the winner. If you win you win the House page and you will be the one that keeps it up. Post all your ideas here in this thread." -Radu
Okay so this is a chance to get my own page in the house. That would defiantly be a good thing!
I am hoping that we don't lose the internet, or if we do, we get it back up and running by midnight on Saturday. If we lose it though, I will have more time to think about the idea and different house page additions.
Now, what if I do create a coven and leave the house... would I be able to get the responsibilities of the page transfered to my other account? Since I am planning on talking to Daire after this whole Comcast thing is straightened out.
Comcast
01:14 Sep 15 2007
Times Read: 1,156
It's horrible knowing you're going to lose your internet connection and not knowing when. *sighs* At least I earned some favors and explored some of the houses and covens today. While I was on here, I actually got the energy and ability up to do some housework. I got the dishes done, the counters cleaned off, the floor swept and mopped, and now I am just waiting for the swollen ankles to go away. I feel a lot better since I could actually do it though. And I got the kitchen done. I think I am going to go room by room when I get in these moods and just clean. It's a positive way of dealing with negative emotions.
So now that my back is hurting a little and I need to put my feet up...
I am off to work on my squirrels!!!!!
*Oh, I have been doing embroidery again for the baby. I finished three teddy bears and now I am working on a scene with two squirrels and after that I have a unicorn to do, along with other things. I can't wait for her to come out. And the embroidery is giving me something to do since I can't do much because of energy levels and limitations.*
Yay! Squirrelly, squirrelly! Squirrelly, squirrelly, squirrelly!
Maybe tomorrow, if we have the internet still, I will write why I love squirrels so much and why I cry when I accidentally run over one when driving.
19:29 Sep 13 2007
Times Read: 1,157
I won't be on for a little while, probably a week or a little over. Comcast is shutting everything off.
Nothing Too Great
01:07 Sep 10 2007
Times Read: 1,158
I am losing my sense of hand/eye coordination and balance as time goes by. On Friday night/Saturday morning, I almost wiped out at Wal-mart. Brett caught me but his arm wrapped around my waist and pressed on the baby. I threw my hip out a little. I am thankful he was there and grabbed me but I kind of have to wonder whether it would have been better if he would have let me fall. I know, that is a weird way of thinking. My side and my hip hurts a little bit but what's getting to me is a toothache completely unrelated to the incident. It's the tooth where I got a root canal done before. I hit myself in the mouth hard enough in my sleep to cause bleeding on Saturday night. I will survive, even though the annoying pain of it is a bitch, especially when eating.
We made a deal with my mom that we're not allowed buying more baby things until after the 5th of next month. Not hard to abide by that since we are tight on money until the end of this month. But mom and Uncle Bill have been buying things here and there. She won't tell me what but I do know she has bought a diaper bag for us. I am kind of wondering what else though. I know she is excited and things. I also know that whether she will admit it or not, she is happy and this is a first for her. Her first blood-related grandchild... probably the only one she is getting from me. She loves Tyler and treats him as her own grandchild but I know somewhere in her mind, the whole first thing is registering. She is going to try to take Grandma to town at the beginning of next month so she can get the baby things, if any, to keep them alright, clean and usable.
Brett's step-mom and dad were asking what we have for the baby so far. His sister is excited as hell that it's a girl and his mom was asking and has already sent three outfits for the baby. I kind of have to wonder how much they are going to be getting considering it's the first girl in the grandchildren in his family.
Now the big question is... how the hell do we know what we need or will need when we have five grandparents and a god parent buying things, not even including the rest of our families? I am kind of trying to figure it out. I don't want to be rude or anything and demand to know what they are getting us but we kind of need to know something. LOL! It might get a little insane as the time draws nearer for my little girl to make her appearance.
Long Over Due
03:09 Sep 08 2007
Times Read: 1,159
Alright, this entry has been a long time coming but I haven't had the time or patience to sit down for a little and type it all out.
I went to see my new OB on the 22nd of last month (August) to make sure everything is going good with my pregnancy, check on the baby, and see if I liked him enough before it's too late to change my mind. LOL!
The next day I had to do a blood test to see if I have diabetes or not and to get an ultrasound done of the baby to see it's progress and also the gender of it. The ultrasound went good, other then the technician getting frustrated with my baby for moving around insanely while she was trying to get certain pictures taken. It was confirmed I am having a girl, so my suspicions were correct. *smiles* As I knew they were already, thank you dreams! She weighed 2 pounds and 8 ounces on that date (8-23). I am currently 30 weeks and 6 days along in this pregnancy. My blood test showed I am not diabetic, although I barely passed! But it show I was anemic and so they put me on iron supplements. Oh joy! I had a bladder infection, which is almost gone now. And I had another appointment on the 5th of this month.
He gave me another speech on diabetes. He wants me to take my blood sugar about twice a week after fasting and for me to keep track of it all in a log basically. No problem there. I told him and the nurse about my spells of dizziness and light-headed throughout the day. He listed some of the possible reasons why I could be experiencing them. Some including dehydration, low blood sugar, low blood pressure, the anemia, and heat. I already knew those reasons but at least it is in my charts now.
Reading Again
20:42 Sep 06 2007
Times Read: 1,160
I am becoming unbelievably addicted to reading, yet again. I finished Black Cat, started on Twilight, and have Child of Darkness waiting for me. Plus I started reading fairy tales to the baby today. *smiles* At least it seems to be calming her down some. My belly can't take much more kicking.
*sighs*
I think the current book and one waiting will be enough to last me until the end of this month. The next time Brett gets paid at least. I hope they do. If not, there are a couple of books around the apartment I haven't read yet. I might be tempted to pick them up. Who knows anymore...
Maybe I will type more to this tonight, maybe not. Depends on what's going on, how into my books I am, and how I feel for the most part. No promises, just maybes.
Thinking More and More
22:12 Sep 03 2007
Times Read: 1,161
I have started reading again, which feels great! I am reading the rest of Black Cat. I can't wait to finish the full series.
I also have a couple of other books here that I got recently to read... well my Brett Brett got them for me. I have to love and appreciate how much he does to try to make me happy. I wish he would realize how much he does make me happy.
I feel guilty because I am sleeping on the couch instead of in bed with Brett. So last night, I fell asleep on the couch when he got into the shower. I guess when he got out of it that I was already asleep. Instead of him going into the bedroom and sleeping in there where he is comfortable... he went to sleep on the other, smaller couch. He doesn't like leaving me alone and tries to cuddle with me as much as possible. Still it feels like it isn't enough to me sometimes. It's not even because it isn't enough... It's that it just feels like it isn't, even when it is. I want his time. I admit it.
PRIVATE ENTRY
18:56 Sep 03 2007
Times Read: 1,164
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